it's been nearly three years since i last wrote a journal on here. i took it upon myself to spend a couple hours on this website and it's so wonderful and creepy at the same time to see how much i've grown these past six years. it's so weird seeing the things i used to get so emotionally involved with, how much of a huge deal little young me made things when they really werent so at all.
these past two years have been the roughest and darkest of my years but i'm shining bright this year. from going down a shit hole due to my heroin addiction to losing everything i own to jail, i'm pretty sure i went through my midlife crises at 19/20. now i live with my mother in honolulu, hawaii and it was probably the best decision i have ever made, because i actually took the initiative to do this all by myself. and i'm so proud of myself for that.
i miss my friends and family back in michigan so much, so so so much, but i dont think i can make it a habit to stay there for long periods of time anymore. i've moved on and i'm doing so much better, for the first time in my life i feel like i have so much to offer to all my family and friends and i'm excited for the so many things that have yet to happen.